damned if one does, and damned if one doesn't

— ‘The tr-ruth! You think you want the truth? What would you do with it if you got it?’ / He didn’t wait for an answer, but jumped to his feet with surprising agility, strode to the window, and turning his back to them stared out into the branches of the tree. / ‘Damned if I do,’ he growled, ‘and damned if I don’t.’ […] ‘[…] Pritchard wouldn’t stoop to it so they sent you to do the dirty work, is that it? The local Polizei are too delicate, send the SS! I should throw you out,’ he stormed. / Capricorn wondered if he were drunk, and looked at Snow. / ‘Why, I could tell you . . . .’ / Diener stopped, abruptly. The colour receded from his face. As the belligerence left, he looked older and tired. Slowly, he went back to his station at the window. / ‘Damned if I do, and damned if I don’t,’ he said again.